Have you ever found yourself between a rock and a hard place? Well, I feel as if I am in between a boulder and an even harder place that is crushing my soul. Okay, that may be a little dramatic, but seriously these past few months haven’t been a walk in the park. I recently Googled “quotes for miserable people”… that is rock bottom, friends.
Yes, I live in a super cool city and have a great job, a supportive family and loving friends - what more can a girl ask for?
About two months ago, I experienced this inner pain. It came out of nowhere. I felt like I was a balloon filled with too much helium about to pop at any moment. I was overwhelmed with feelings of complete sadness and one day those emotions came streaming out of me. I was uncontrollably crying, confused and probably needed an intervention from consuming an insane amount of Half Baked Ben and Jerry’s Ice Cream (and no it was not that time of the month). I was diagnosed (by my mom) with unhappiness.
I realized that I hadn’t been living my life for me which was no one's fault, but my own. I needed to sit back and reevaluate what I wanted and how to make myself my happiest self.
Since that day, I have been on a path of reevaluating and trying to find what makes me happy. I tried the quick fix – work out regularly, eat healthy, hang with the girls, smile more, visit family, make time for myself.
It worked for a hot second.
Life had other plans for me. Due to some inevitable circumstances I found myself back at square one.
Mission: to find what makes me happy.
Always, Maddi B.